For the past couple of days, I’ve been logged out of my social media. I don’t know what it is about this hospital but just being here and not being able to leave my bed I have realised that there are so many more things out there than looking through my Instagram feed, looking at peoples snapchat stories and reading through the Facebook feed. Im not saying those are completely useless but I want to do something better than that with my time here.
It may sound dumb to quite a lot of you but I’m genuinely scared for tomorrows procedure. I won’t be under much anaesthesia and I don’t know what to expect from the minute I enter the operation theatre. My doctors have said that a Biopsy isn’t painful but lets be honest - most doctors haven’t undergone what they operate on and are not diagnosed with what they specialise in. Most doctors know the science behind the procedures and medical problems. (Hopefully they never have to undergo the procedure or be diagnosed with such problems)
The one thing that has always put me in a good mood is watching a Spider-man movie. If you know me, you probably know that I have been one of the biggest Spider-man fans since I was a little kid. There isn’t a moment where I can say no to watching Spider-man. Tonight the plan before sleeping is to watch The Amazing Spider-man 2, just so that im in a good mood before being woken up at 5:30 tomorrow morning…
Hopefully everything goes smoothly tomorrow morning and I come out of that room feeling like a champion (hopefully knocked out, if they give me enough anaesthesia). I’m still kind of in the dark about where I stand in the Heart Failure department. I know that my heart is barely contracting. My heart has been described as the non-beating heart, its just vibrating. Hopefully after the Biopsy the doctors have a clearer direction in which I will be heading in and how to make the quickest,safest and strongest recovery possible.
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